Honesty of the Heart...

I wonder why it is at times that some become so closed to the world? Do we become so battered and torn within our hearts that we can no longer open ourselves up to the potential pain of exposing what we hold dear- our emotions? Longing to find what we all seek, wanting what eludes most and finds some... yet avoiding what could bring bliss- seeking only safety. Simply the mystery of loving another. Time brings forth change, it ebbs and flows like the tides and to capture it would be like asking the tide to stop. It is not something to be held, it is merely something to be admired. For it seems when we strive to embrace what is not truly ours, it is gone as quickly as it came.

Yet I will always wonder, in the game we all play and fail at some point in our lives, do we ever come to a point where we fully recognize what we need, or is it always a conquest of hedonistic, selfish desire? I mean, at some point, a compromise has to be made, right? To compromise or to not.... to roam this earth in search of that "one" person who connects to our soul like no other. I used to think there was that 'one' person and I am finding as I move through my own time on this earth that a variety of people have offered many opportunities to experience different moments of vibrancy, clarity, intellect, passion, sexual tension, friendship, compassion, etc. So many facets to the human spirit and every person I have connected with has brought a unique experience and a recognition of my own inner spirit and how I long to feel.

I do think this life is a journey... a very confusing and winding journey. One of experience, which brings a plethora of moments that offer up new found knowledge about our deepest desires and needs. Only if we are open to these moments do these core revelations reveal themselves though, in my humble opinion. So what to do if you are a soul who fears taking that plunge into something you may never know, unless you release the fear to walk into the unknown? Will you miss out on the opportunity to experience that once in a lifetime moment to test the depths of your own energy and the desires which vibrate just under the surface? ... miss out on the opportunity for the point of rushing through your journey to satisfy some type of deadline of age, will... need to be done with the journey and reach your final destination? And for what? To say you've crossed the finish-line and begun your journey to the end?

Perhaps denying oneself is all we can do when the fear takes over, and the mind wrestles with the heart. Perhaps it is the safety of some; safety for their own heart. Possibly it is only after we come to terms with the true depths of our own souls, we can embrace the desires that lie beneath the surface and allow our heart to unlock whatever it wants to feel; without caution, without pride, without lying to ourselves that what we perceive could just not truly be real. Sadly, perhaps when we come to this point, the person whom we were suppose to have met in our journey to teach us a lesson about ourselves has continued on and then, only then... in the sadness of our hearts, we recognize what that person truly represented in that moment of time.

Ironic, eh?