Apasionada Viviendo ...

It was one of those nights... I had finished at work early, received some good news and spoke to one of my favorite people... I was on a natural high and I didn't want to go home to do homework- just yet. Ya know, those perfect summer nights.. awesome temp, and an illuminated sky, but with no moon visible ... you just want to soak it in- outside. I rang my cousin, Lee and one of our infamous "chats" began on her porch last night.



You know how you have some people in your life that you can just talk to for hours... about anything and everything and never tire of their company. Someone that makes you think and circle your own thoughts, always to draw a new conclusion. She is definitely one of those people and has been since we were little, sleeping over at each other's houses and talking till the wee hours of the morn. lol Anyway, the conversation was on any number of topics, but mainly on life and challenges, growth, the future, and the possibilities.



I know looking back over the course of the past year, I would never have envisioned being where I am now, feeling what I do today, and wanting what I am about to pursue. The changes that have occurred I didn't see coming.... I know I felt them swirling, but there was no urgency to set them into action. There were several people and circumstatances that changed all of that over this past year, but moreover, at the time, I don't think I had the strength, or the courage emotionally to set out to attain any of it... I just wasn't ready. I think it is only over time that we grow to become who we will venture into the depths of our lives as and it cannot be rushed by any one thing- until we are ready. I am certainly in the here and now of that process, and I do believe, as I expressed to her last night, it can be exciting and all a bit overwhelming at times too.



But all the same, I think life is suppose to be this exciting adventure with all the twists and turns it can throw at you... this is what challenges us and makes us stronger... it pushes us to grow. There is no right or wrong answer... just experience and holding on for the ride! Often times though, and I am certainly guilty of it in various times of my life, we are in such a hurry to rush to the next stage... to be on to the next moment, success, life achievement. Slowing all that down is so hard and yet, very important I am finding. I am grasping the beauty of progression, of embracing every moment, looking at each day as a moment to treasure. Sure it has it's monotony too... that's part of it..... UPS, downs and just the In-BeTwEeN.



There is no manual, no decisive answers as to what you should do, who you should become, or even who you will love... it just flows into your life and sometimes it's not about willing something, or always making it happen. Sometimes, it is solely about what happens to you, and our ability to embrace the moment and doing the best we can. And in the end, having lived with the satisfaction that it was just that... your best and you passionately enjoyed every moment of the ride!







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